I am drowning in an irrational fear,
Mind racing and heart pounding,
But I cannot figure out why.
Nothing has happened.
Nothing has changed.
Life has been, for the most part, the same.
But scenarios still run through my mind.
I have to remind myself that sound is
My breath slipping past my lips,
The furnace humming itself to life,
The background music of the TV show.
Just close your eyes and sleep.
Please just go to sleep.
But I cannot fall asleep.
I never fall asleep.
Nothing has happened.
Nothing has changed.
But I am in full panic mode.
This is why I hate one thirty three a.m.
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