I am realizing
maybe you aren’t as perfect
as I had once thought,
because I’ve told you
what makes me uncomfortable
and your replies only made it worse.
Now I’m waking up from dreams
that seem too realistic to be false,
because I cannot get the thoughts
out of my fucking head.
But what kind of person would I be
to ask you to do something
to make me feel more secure?
Besides, I wanted you to
do it in the first place.
I don’t know if this is
past trauma speaking or
if I’m avoiding red flags,
and it just sucks.
Fire & Female 