My therapist tells me I need to focus on positivity,
and I am trying my best to,
but there is fear in leaving the comfort
of sadness.
Happiness has always been fleeting,
while sadness has remained my rock.
I’m comforted by the midnight cries into a pillow and
drags of metal across delicate flesh and
the burn of vodka as it slides down my throat and
a hollowness that should shake my core…
But it doesn’t.
This life is all I’ve ever known.
My therapist says I need to focus on positivity,
and I’m trying but I’d be lying if I said
I’m not scared of losing the security of
sadness.
Fire & Female 
This is beautifully written. Exactly how so many of us feel
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Thank you!
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I understand this so much. Sometimes I worry I’m so comfortable living in my sadness I don’t want to truly be happy out of fear being happy is only temporary. Well written, as always.
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Exactly. Thank you for the kind words!
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To each his own 😊
Paramahansa Yogananda says: if you want to be happy no one can make you unhappy. If you want to be unhappy no one can make you happy 😇
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This is very true! Happiness (and the opposite) come from within.
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This is excellent. I have a feeling we’re going to get on my friend 😉🖤
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