I’m really struggling and I don’t know why. Wait a minute. That’s a lie. I know exactly what’s been weighing me down. I’m just not sure how to talk about it–
or if I really want to.
I tried to reach out to loved ones yesterday, when my mind felt manic and my chest physically hurt from my rapid heartbeat, hoping it would be the positivity I needed…
It wasn’t.
One ignored my messages, one just wouldn’t understand, and the other gave me no support at all, which was unusual and heartbreaking to me…
That made me feel worse.
Like everyone is sick of their sad sibling, sad daughter, sad best friend, sad girlfriend… I would be too if I had a friend like me, though, so I get it.
Hell, I’m sick of myself.
So now I’m lying on my bedroom floor, in total darkness, listening to absolute silence, begging myself not to give in again because I’ve been doing so fucking good.
*spoiler alert*
I gave in.
Fire & Female 
Wishing you strength and hope!
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Thank you!
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You are so very welcome! š
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It says creative writing, but I have to ask, all good?
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Much better now. It’s just been a Rollercoaster of a month emotionally. Thank you for asking. ā¤
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Your welcome. Glad the ride has come to an end š
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Wow this is powerful and saddening all at once. I hope you’re doing okay now. Remember a setback isn’t a failure. Keep working at it ā¤
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Doing much better. And thanks, I definitely need to remember that!
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I know that feeling of assuming your a burden on everyone all too well, and Iām sorry you felt like that. Iām sure your loved ones care. Maybe it was just an off day for them too. Do your best to stay strong. You got this!
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That is definitely a possibility they were. My perspective in that moment was pretty one sided, but this is a reminder I needed also. I appreciate the kind words!
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Sometimes we expect too much from loved ones, which is sad considering we’re usually not asking too much. I’m sorry you’re struggling. You’re a fabulous writer, and I wish you nothing but the best. You are loved, even when you struggle to believe it.
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That is a very true statement, and an unfortunate one at that. I appreciate your kind words. I very much needed to hear them!
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