I find myself feeling sick to my stomach whenever you cross my mind. The butterflies you once gave me are now just hollowed carcasses left behind to poison me every time I hear your name.
Tag: domestic violence
Cracked Foundation
She wanted to see the good in you, so she went to work building a foundation for love and the future you promised her. She noticed when you set your tools down and left her to do all the work on her own, but she made excuses for your behavior. When you set fires to … Continue reading Cracked Foundation
Monster (Not Man)
You were too busy yelling to notice how she flinched at your sudden movements and made herself smaller in your presence. She did her best to put you on a pedestal, bow at your feet and sing praises to you, because happy you was how she stayed safe. Did it make you feel good to … Continue reading Monster (Not Man)
Faithless
I'm mad at God right now. Or maybe He's mad at me, cause its been pretty fucking silent on the other side for quite some time. I got in my car, drove for hours last night, screamed at Him until my voice gave out and then cried out noises that broke my own heart. Why … Continue reading Faithless
The Heat of Chaos
A flashback to the final night. July 2019: I am not okay. I am a total mess back on the floor of a home that has been drenched in lighter fluid and intentionally set on fire. The walls are hot with flame, the linoleum is melting under me, but I remain curled up on the … Continue reading The Heat of Chaos
Ghost [of You]
I hear your voice in the soft mumble of strangers in a coffee shop, In the swoosh of a car zooming by on the interstate, In the rumble of a thunderstorm off in the distance, In the rhythm of unfamiliar songs playing on the radio. I feel the sharp edge of your tongue as you … Continue reading Ghost [of You]
Detox
I thought I was done with toxicity, But I find myself surrounded by it. In my personal life, In my friendships, In my friends relationships, In my interactions with strangers. I do my best to avoid it where I can, Because I don't need anymore reminders Of fists in the walls of my safe space, … Continue reading Detox
Two Thirty A.M.
Image from Volkan Olmez on Unsplash I am exhausted, with my head resting against the fluff of a pillow that has yet to lull me to sleep. And while I'm exhausted and begging my eyes to close and my body to sink into the comfort of my pillow top, I am wired; thinking, thinking, thinking. … Continue reading Two Thirty A.M.
5 Ted Talks You Need To Watch Right Now:
Welcome to my Ted Talk on Ted Talks. Ted.com I'm not sure if much of an introduction to this blog post is necessary given the title above, but I want to emphasize the importance of educating yourself and expanding your thought process. You've probably seen a Ted Talk or two in your lifetime, and if … Continue reading 5 Ted Talks You Need To Watch Right Now:
Fire & Female 