Midnight is approaching, and I'm here thinking about you. I wish I wasn't. I hate that I still am, and that it's been nine months now. I can't help but wonder if you're happy, if I ever cross your mind, and why I wasn't enough. I'll never understand what happened to us, but I'll miss … Continue reading Nine Months Later
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To All The Boys I Tried To Love
I was the moon, but you were so fascinated with lights that danced in the evening sky, you didn't notice my worth; how I lit up your darkest nights with a gentle, selfless love, how I grounded you in peace. Did you not know stars die, but the moon is forever? I was the moon, … Continue reading To All The Boys I Tried To Love
I’m Still Unsure Soul Mates Exist
Image courtesy of Kim Rose Art In the end, we're all just looking for someone who sees the world how we do, who appreciates our small details, who brings sunshine instead of sadness.
Whirlwind
You were full of highs and lows, and I pretended that I didn't mind, but the truth is you made me dizzy with your constant changes. I was good before I found you. Then you came in like a whirlwind of excitement and sex and pretty words I was so desperate to hear. I ignored … Continue reading Whirlwind
Fraud
I'm standing in a walk-in shower with the water on, just begging every droplet of water to get hotter and sear the trauma off of my fragile, porcelain skin. It doesn't, though. I stare through the curtain of water and steam that's filling the room, but my focus isn't on anything in particular. Instead I'm … Continue reading Fraud
Reckless
You leave a path of destruction everywhere you go, and I'm convinced you do not care. Its reckless how you jump from bed to bed and heart to heart without hesitation, all while telling your sad sob stories and charming with perfectly placed words. I should have known your intentions, but I was captivated by … Continue reading Reckless
Faithless
I'm mad at God right now. Or maybe He's mad at me, cause its been pretty fucking silent on the other side for quite some time. I got in my car, drove for hours last night, screamed at Him until my voice gave out and then cried out noises that broke my own heart. Why … Continue reading Faithless
Revelation
Image courtesy of Mara Dyer I'm good at getting lost inside my head, convincing myself of untruths others spew; that I'm not pretty enough, thin enough, good enough. That I'm too much at times I shouldn't be, or I get excited over the dumbest things. I get hurt by the comments I'm too passionate, that … Continue reading Revelation
Artistry
Image courtesy of enki22 You paint colors in the sky that I've never seen, and play music in my ears that I've never heard. I try to close my eyes and cover my ears, but the artistry is far too mesmerizing. I try to resist the temptation, but I want nothing more than to drown … Continue reading Artistry
Ash & Smoke
I stopped fighting for you. I quit chasing you around, trying to get you to just see me. I quit attempting to create beauty out of the ashes of your broken promises, and the smoke of empty commitments. I took a step back, finally saw the whole picture, and you had the audacity to ask … Continue reading Ash & Smoke
Fire & Female 