Faulty

I'm wired wrong, but I don't know how to fix the short circuits. I tried to reroute the wires, manage the cables better, install new software, bypass the problem altogether. Still, the connections are not being made and I'm left faulty and fearful. What if I cannot fix the error? Will I be loved? Cherished? … Continue reading Faulty →

Inner Battle

I'm tired. Tired of fighting, tired of feeling, tired of failing. Seems like all I do lately is fail. Fail to let people in, fail to keep sadness out, fail to pull myself together. I keep blaming it on uncertainty. Uncertainty of life, uncertainty of love, uncertainty of worth. Maybe it's really my refusal to … Continue reading Inner Battle →

Second Impression

Be careful of your words, and the attitude behind them. Sometimes failure to be mindful can result in perceptions changing. I'd hate to view you in another light.

Raindrop

I felt the sadness creeping in, tried to distract myself with counting the raindrops falling outside my living room window, but I couldn't find my focus. Have you ever tried to focus on a single raindrop in a thunderstorm? What was meant to be a distraction, became the catalyst for sadness because I realized I … Continue reading Raindrop →

Unchanged Behaviors

She shouldn't have to tell you it bothers her more than once, nor several times. What is a big deal to her is a valid feeling to have. The real question is why haven't you done anything to change?

It Hurts When You Steal The Light From My Eyes [Please Just Listen]

Sometimes I talk too much. I'm aware that I do. I go off on tangents that feel related to the topic, or maybe they take me down memory lane and don't relate at all. I get excited and want to share all the little details, thinking it paints a better picture for the listener. Sometimes, … Continue reading It Hurts When You Steal The Light From My Eyes [Please Just Listen] →

Validation for The Girl Who’s Insecure and Trying to Love Again

If you're reading this, you've probably been stuck in a negative headspace for the last few days, and are obsessively trying to find some article that tells you what you're feeling is okay and that others feel it too. Your life is probably in an alright place, if we're being honest. You're most likely in … Continue reading Validation for The Girl Who’s Insecure and Trying to Love Again →

If You Love Someone With Severe Anxiety, Maybe You Should Read This.

I want you to close your eyes. Imagine it's nighttime on a warm summer night and you're standing in the middle of a four-way stop. A streetlight nearby illuminates the area around you just enough to see you're in a quiet residential area. There isn't a car, or person, or animal in sight. You're alone … Continue reading If You Love Someone With Severe Anxiety, Maybe You Should Read This. →

Dashes (Another Day, Another Struggle)

I'm really struggling and I don't know why. Wait a minute. That's a lie. I know exactly what's been weighing me down. I'm just not sure how to talk about it-- or if I really want to. I tried to reach out to loved ones yesterday, when my mind felt manic and my chest physically … Continue reading Dashes (Another Day, Another Struggle) →

The Secret I’m Keeping Is Eating at Me (Stuck in Limbo)

I had an hour drive to the hospital today; another day of pokes and prods and tests. I listened to music without lyrics because I thought hearing words might make me cry. I cried regardless. Honestly, life feels stuck in limbo right now. Like it doesn't matter what I say or do; I might not … Continue reading The Secret I’m Keeping Is Eating at Me (Stuck in Limbo) →