My therapist tells me I need to focus on positivity, and I am trying my best to, but there is fear in leaving the comfort of sadness. Happiness has always been fleeting, while sadness has remained my rock. I'm comforted by the midnight cries into a pillow and drags of metal across delicate flesh and … Continue reading It’s Not All Sunshine and Rainbows, Robin.
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Good Men Keep Their Eyes Where They Belong
You're so worried about who he's talking to, who he's looking at, if he's cheating on you. Honey, you're thinking wasted thoughts. You're a catch, a ten, a total fucking babe. Look at you. He's the one who should be worried. And if his eyes are wandering, fuck him. If he's talking to other women, … Continue reading Good Men Keep Their Eyes Where They Belong
For The LOML
I promise I'll be better soon. Maybe you see nothing wrong with the way I am, at least you say you don't, but I take issue with my constant need for attention, affection, reassurance. I promise I'll be better soon. I know it can't be easy for you to keep up with my constant mood … Continue reading For The LOML
A Poetic Take on Catastrophic Thinking
You're failing, a failure, pull yourself together. Take the scissors, place between heart and head; cut the fucking tether. A mess, no dress, just a void within the shell. You act fine, but sins like that earn you spaces inside hell. What's wrong with you? Stop thinking like that! If you fuck this up, they'll … Continue reading A Poetic Take on Catastrophic Thinking
Tidal Waves and Depression
I am the tide coming into shore; barreling towards the end, no escape in sight. I've already seen so much in my life, and I'm not ready to leave this ocean, but still I see no way to run. I am the tide coming into shore, watching and waiting until I am no more.
This is Why Overthinkers Shouldn’t Be Up at 1 A.M.
I think I've done that thing again; where I break my own damn heart, searching for "A-ha!" moments, and ruminating on painful thoughts. Is this an In-My-Head thing? Or a red flag? I'm just not sure where to go from here...
Run Before They Hurt You
It's in the moments I start to let my guard down, truly let my guard down, that something happens and I am reminded no one is as honest as they seem to be. Maybe it's the past trauma speaking, but I don't know how to fucking trust-- or maybe I don't want to trust... And … Continue reading Run Before They Hurt You
Self Hatred and an Oversized Tee
I'm fragile, insecure; told to love myself by a society that has taught me not one part of me is truly loveable. Throw in the men who came and reiterated the narrative perpetuated by fashion magazines and filtered Instagram models, and most days I just feel hate when I look in the mirror. So I … Continue reading Self Hatred and an Oversized Tee
I Wish You Could Just Stay
It's an usually warm spring day and the sun is out. You lift my hand up to your mouth and gently kiss the back of it, something that's become habit and yet still stirs up butterflies in me. I've had you by my side for almost three days; like always it's not enough time with … Continue reading I Wish You Could Just Stay
Majority Letdown
A male coworker gets in the elevator with me and immediately, I tense up. I know what you're thinking. Not all men are bad. You don't need to worry. And I don't disagree; not all are bad. But how am I to judge who is safe? I didn't think my male friends were unsafe, until … Continue reading Majority Letdown
Fire & Female 